What a time it is to be alive. So, as I talked about in my last post, we just got a new car. It was time to go on a road trip. San Antonio was not planned, but we got in the car and just decided to drive. We left the house with the clothes on our backs and enough food for a 4 month old to last a while. We had no particular destination, we just knew we wanted to ride & vibe. Now, you have to remember that Houston is an hour away from itself. So a in city drive would've been a road trip in itself. We hit i-10 and we were rollin'. In and out of traffic, switching lanes, music blasting, sun blazing, but the air was chilly. It was such a vibe. Next thing you know, we were in Katy, then next thing you know, we stop at a little gas station right outside of Sealy. I grabbed coffee and donuts because it was round 5:30PM and I was getting tired. That road will make me sleepy, so for sure I needed a pick-me-up. Well, once we were back on the road, Jeremy said "baby, looks like San Antonio is closer than the house, wanna go to San Antonio?" I was like, HELL YES. I said, well, we don't have any clothes or anything and he was like, hey, sometimes it happens. I loved that. The spontaneous nature of my other half just makes feel all bubbly inside. So, being that I am the proactive one, I immediately got on my phone and found us a decent room for the night at the Holiday Inn. Once we reached San Antonio, we checked into our room and got ourselves situated before venturing out. Fed and changed the baby, emptied the bladders, and headed back out. To be honest, I don't think either of us were expecting to see much. It was a spur of the moment thing and we were both in a new city. We didn't know if there were going to be people out and about on COLD and windy night. We didn't know if there were going to be many out because of COVID. We didn't know any of that. So we hit the highway and headed to the downtown area. Being that I had never been to San Antonio as an adult or have any memory as a child there, I had no idea what to expect. It was a whole new world down there. The underpass had neon blue lights, there were horse and carriages that were decorated in bright pretty lights, and then, we seen the river walk. I've heard about the river walk, but never seen it myself. It was the most beautiful thing. We found a parking spot and headed out on foot with the stroller. We came to see that getting down to the river walk was not stroller friendly, but that didn't stop us. We carried that stroller up and down every stair case need be. We were going to explore by any means. It was breathtaking. I was blown away by the water, the lit up hotel balconies, and the amazing and unique smells coming from each restaurant and bar that was on the river. There were people and kids everywhere and it was so lively. Like, life was not on pause because of everything going on in the world. As if, COVID did not exist. And honestly, I loved it. I love seeing people still living life safely despite the fear that is in the world right now. We saw live music at a nice restaurant that was outside of a hotel and we stopped to bask in the ambience. They were playing jazz and everyone around was enjoying every sound that came from it. As soon as we parked the stroller and stood aside to get a good listen, Jeremy grabbed me and pulled me close. He does this any time we are standing and experiencing something that we are both really enjoying. It's like silent reassurance that he wants me beside him while he is taking in whatever it is that is happening at the moment that's grabbing his attention and making him smile. It was a very romantic and beautiful scenery. Both Jeremy and I are spontaneous and adventurous. Him more than me, but we both have those qualities. It's nice when we do little things like this. That road trip was inexpensive and fun. Not to mention, again, spur of the moment. I felt like I was on a cloud just coasting through life with my little family. It is such a blessing to be surrounded by beautiful kids I created. A man that I adore and adores me, and knowing that no matter what, we are all in this life together. Having this human experience together. My soul is content and happy I needed this weekend. Open road, open land, beautiful sunsets, city lights, and us. Don't worry San Antonio, Jeremy and I will be making our appearance again soon! Next time with a balcony river view room, no kids, and all the grown and sexy vibes. Until next time....
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I am in a place in life where I am starting to realize more than ever that I am worth more than I allow. I care so much for other people and I just do not get the same energy and honestly I am so sick of that shit. I am tired of being sweet and caring. I am tired of allowing people to play me like a fool. I am tired of allowing others to make me FEEL ANYTHING. I am tired of having to explain myself in certain situations. I am sick and tired. The thing about me is that I always feel like I need to explain myself to others. I always feel like I need to explain why I did something, why I said something, etc. I KNOW ME. First of all, a liar is something I am NOT. I tell this to my partner all the time. One thing about me, is that I am not about to sit around and lie for no reason. Sometimes, we all tell lies, but for good reason. But, I don't sit around and lie for fun or lie to make myself look better. If I said something, if I did something, bet your ASS there was a reason for it. And if somebody comes and asks me did I say this or did I do that, I surely in the fu*k did. And what about it? Like hell no. I am sick of this running around the bush trying to help others save face and look good. If you are doing some stuff that's questionable, I am calling it out. But for the most part from today forward, I am done with people. I'm sure I am the topic of many conversations, that's why I deleted my social media. Because as much as I stay to myself, people always have something to say. I have tried to keep a good relationship with a lot of people in my life, but enough is enough if the same energy isn't being displayed. I am tired of being the "nice one". If you aren't matching my energy, I will peacefully make my exit. That goes for the way people are with my child as well. If you are not putting out the energy for him, we will not be pushing out that energy for you. Period.
I want a safe and peaceful 2022. I have so many things to look forward to. We just got a new 2019 Camry Luxury Edition car. Beautiful, smooth sailing car. I just got a new job paying great money with amazing benefits and perks. I graduate this year as a Medical Biller & Coder. We are looking to move into a house this year if possible. Things are really looking up. As far as personal development, I grew so much is 2021 and I plan to make even more personal development changes. I am preparing my mind and heart to be an amazing wife once we are in the place in life we are wanting to be before getting married, I am working on my overall physical health, I am working on my mental health, and I am learning to let things go. But one thing I have struggles with is learning to let people go. Well, today I decided that I am truly done wanting anything to do with people who don't want anything to do with me. I have to cut people out of my life who will get in the way of my mental health space. I advise other people to do the same... |
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