Realizing that I Care About Others More than They Care for Me...

I am in a place in life where I am starting to realize more than ever that I am worth more than I allow. I care so much for other people and I just do not get the same energy and honestly I am so sick of that shit. I am tired of being sweet and caring. I am tired of allowing people to play me like a fool. I am tired of allowing others to make me FEEL ANYTHING. I am tired of having to explain myself in certain situations. I am sick and tired. The thing about me is that I always feel like I need to explain myself to others. I always feel like I need to explain why I did something, why I said something, etc. I KNOW ME. First of all, a liar is something I am NOT. I tell this to my partner all the time. One thing about me, is that I am not about to sit around and lie for no reason. Sometimes, we all tell lies, but for good reason. But, I don't sit around and lie for fun or lie to make myself look better. If I said something, if I did something, bet your ASS there was a reason for it. And if somebody comes and asks me did I say this or did I do that, I surely in the fu*k did. And what about it? Like hell no. I am sick of this running around the bush trying to help others save face and look good. If you are doing some stuff that's questionable, I am calling it out. But for the most part from today forward, I am done with people. I'm sure I am the topic of many conversations, that's why I deleted my social media. Because as much as I stay to myself, people always have something to say. I have tried to keep a good relationship with a lot of people in my life, but enough is enough if the same energy isn't being displayed. I am tired of being the "nice one". If you aren't matching my energy, I will peacefully make my exit. That goes for the way people are with my child as well. If you are not putting out the energy for him, we will not be pushing out that energy for you. Period.

I want a safe and peaceful 2022. I have so many things to look forward to. We just got a new 2019 Camry Luxury Edition car. Beautiful, smooth sailing car. I just got a new job paying great money with amazing benefits and perks. I graduate this year as a Medical Biller & Coder. We are looking to move into a house this year if possible. Things are really looking up. 
As far as personal development, I grew so much is 2021 and I plan to make even more personal development changes. I am preparing my mind and heart to be an amazing wife once we are in the place in life we are wanting to be before getting married, I am working on my overall physical health, I am working on my mental health, and I am learning to let things go. But one thing I have struggles with is learning to let people go. Well, today I decided that I am truly done wanting anything to do with people who don't want anything to do with me. I have to cut people out of my life who will get in the way of my mental health space. I advise other people to do the same...