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I instantly regretted what slipped out of my mouth while this man was giving me the best head of my life for the third time in less than twelve hours. How could I have been so stupid. My mind started instantly racing and thinking about everything that was about to go wrong in this moment of passion between us. I stood there, shower water hitting my face like little bullets. I could feel the pressure of the water with each water droplet. My curly hair was in my face as I was breathing heavily from nearly climaxing on his tongue for the third time since I've been here.
Roger slowly grabbed my waist and placed his head up against the bottom of my stomach and then slowly lifted his body, stood up, and looked me in my eyes. I know he had all the questions in the world, but was afraid to ask. I could read and understand him without him even saying anything. I knew what I said, shocked the hell out of him. This moment was not going to end the way I'd hoped.
He put one hand on my face and the other he used to turn the water off.
Come on, babygirl, get dressed.
I squinted my eyes and cocked my head to the side in confusion, but at the same time, I wasn't confused. I was expecting this. I just didn't want this moment to end. Everything about this man was right. I was drawn to him in such a way that scared the living daylights out of me, but none of that mattered in his presence. He made me feel like anything is possible.... even...
love at first sight.
Get dressed? Wha... what.. why? I asked him, knowing that I knew the answer already.
He shook his head, wiped the water from his beautiful brown face, and quickly grabbed a towel. He headed for the room without another word.
I threw my face into my hands asking myself how could I have been so stupid. Why did I have to say that? Why?! Shit! I done messed up a good thing, I said to myself, this time, making sure I didn't blurt out another word.
I quickly grabbed a towel and rushed into the room after Roger.
I wrapped the towel around my wet body, and left my hair to air dry. Water from the ends of my curls dripped onto his floors. I stood there in front of him as he sat on the bed with his head hanging and mind racing.
Roger, I... I am sorry. It just slipped out. I didn't mean to ruin the moment, I really didn't. Tears started to fall from my eyes as I got very emotional speaking to this man that I adored so much, even after only knowing him since yesterday.
Red, please sweetie. Don't apologize, please just.. don't. Look, this is my fault. I found a beautiful woman in a vulnerable moment. You were crying about another man, you had just been hurt, and I invited myself into your space. Took you out, brought you home, and completely was not thinking about the fact that you were vulnerable. I know that what you said probably is because you are just so lost right now and that's okay.
Wait but, Rog-
No, shh, it's okay baby girl. He said, it is okay. This is my fault. You are so damn beautiful girl. Your red skin drives me crazy. You're soft, sweet, you like the finer things in life, you're intelligent, sexy. You're everything I've always wanted in a woman. Trust me when I say, I feel the sparks. I feel the undeniable connection between us both. But, it's not that simple. It's... its not that easy he said. As if, he was trying to convince himself that it couldn't be that easy.
Tears began to flow from my face again as I knew the next few things he said, was probably going to be the end of something that barely started.
You are in love with another man. Whether you want to admit it or not. You love him. He messed over you, but you love him anyway. That's okay, mama. Because love don't just go away overnight. Trust me when I say, I know this.
The look on his face let me know that, he really did understand what that feeling was like. It made me curious of his past.
Red, you have some things you need to work out and come to terms with and I'm going to have to be cool on that. I can't allow you to become so confused to where your feelings for me, collide with the feelings that you have for your man. I am sure before the incident you witnessed last night, you were very much in love. Baby, you gotta go figure your shit out. As much as I want you here and as much as I'd love to go have lunch some where beautiful and watch the sun kiss your beautiful skin and stare into those big pretty eyes, I can't do it. I.... I just can't do it, he said as he got up from the bed.
He shook his head and headed towards the kitchen. I stood there, body half wet, water still dripping from my hair. How did things escalate so quickly, I asked myself. I knew he was right, but at the same time, I know how to decipher what I felt for Jaylen and what I felt for Roger. I may have met Roger yesterday, but, I really do think I've fallen in love with him. It sounds crazy when I say it to myself. But, he makes me feel as if the world is mine. The energy that we shared, the connection that was made between us from the moment I bumped into him, everything. The fact that he knew my worth and could see it radiating off of me without me even having to speak, says so much. It speaks volumes the way this man sees me. The care he took with my body. Making me feel alive. I didn't care what he said, I loved Jaylen yes, but I truly have fallen for this man I barely know. I don't even understand it.
Maybe he was right. Maybe I needed to go and just sit and think and process all of this shit that has taken place in the last 24 hours. As much as I wanted to stay, I needed to think clearly.
I grabbed my hair tie and tied up my wet hair. I quickly got dressed and wiped the tears from my face. I looked around the room for a pen, and I grabbed the note from this morning, and wrote my number on the back of it.
I needed him to reach out to me when he was ready to talk. I knew in my heart there was no way this was the last I saw or heard from Roger.
Roger was standing in the living room looking at the view from this beautiful apartment, still wrapped in his towel.
I grabbed my bag and could feel my phone vibrating and rolled my eyes. I was so not worried about what was going on, on my phone. All I could think about, was Roger and how my heart was going to break even more having to walk away from possibly the best thing that could've walked into my life, before he's even had the chance to really show me what he could be for me.
I'll just let myself out.. I said somberly. I knew that this time, he wasn't going to come find me crying. This time, as much as he didn't want to see me walk out of here, he was going to have to let me.
He came up to me, placed his hand on my face again, and titled my head up as if he was going to kiss me one last time. Chills formed on my body and the hairs on the back of my neck became alive again. I closed my eyes, expecting to have the slowest most passionate kiss before heading out of this door back into life... and reality.
He pressed his lips against my forehead and drew me in to hug me tight. It wasn't what I was expecting, but it meant more. I embraced his naked chest and wrapped my arms around him as if I'd never see him again.
I'll see you around, baby girl.
He opened the door and let me walk through it to go find out what the hell I was going to do in my shit show of a life. I walked down the hall to the elevator. Heart breaking more into smaller pieces with each step that I took.
Roger shut the door and sat on the couch. Pondering on what had just occurred and how he felt. He knew that he felt the same way for Hailey that she felt for him. He had fallen for her too, and didn't understand how something like that could've been possible. Not knowing her for long made it all the more confusing.
Just as he was in deep thought, his phone rang.
He went over to the kitchen where it was charging and was instantly puzzled. The area code was for that of his hometown. He thought he was done with anything from his life up north. He wanted nothing to do with it, but something told him to answer anyway. The phone buzzed and buzzed until he finally picked up.
"Wassup Roger, long time no talk!"
The voice on the other end of the line crippled him, as he knew nothing good was about to come from this conversation. The sounds of his past roared through his mind.
"Man, what you want? Me and you are done. Been paid my dues."
The sound of a lighter flicker and the inhales of smoke came through the phone.
"See, that's where you wrong young blood. You can't get out that easy. Nobody gets out that easy. You still got one more job to do."
"Man, no, forget all that shit! I paid my dues!!" Roger screamed as he quickly got out of character and back into the character of the man he used to be.
Just as Roger was about to hang up, a very familiar voice came through the phone.
"Roger, please. Please do what he says. He said he's going to kill me if you don't. I know you don't want to have any ties to me anymore, but you used to love me more than anything. We shared a life. Please, please just do what he says. I DONT NEED THIS SHIT ROGER. This aint my fight!"
Roger fell to his knees as he knew in that moment, that he was about to have to do exactly what was said next....
To be continued.