The Way I See Him...

Nostalgia lives in this love
​It's as if I've lived here with him before...
as if, we were connected in the past life.
I see him in all things that I find beauty and comfort in. 
Old movies that brings me joy
90s anime with my favorite art style
an instrumental with the perfect melody
the beautiful gloom on the rainy days
the night sky in the city
the feeling I get when I drive late at night and no one else is on the road but me & music...
watching the colors of the street lights reflect off of the puddles of water on the ground.
Any time I think of him, I sink into my body. My soul hugs me so that I don't fall too hard because if I did, I'd lose myself. But in a way, I wouldn't even care, because he is me. I am him. 
There is no way that God didn't grab me directly from his rib to create me. 
It should be a crime to love this hard, but this love... it changes everything around us. 
The chemistry is undeniable. It's transcendent. 
This love heals things that are broken. 
It brings light to the darkness. 
It protects what needs protecting.
It covers. 
It brings a new perspective in this dark world we are living in... like maybe... just maybe, this world isn't so bad. Because there is no way that a love like this exists in a place so dark. 
Like maybe, just maybe, this is the love that makes everything worth it. 
This love is safe. 
It's a safe place for him. 
It's a safe place for me. 

It's a safe SPACE for us.